What Does The Bible Say About Suicide?

What Does The Bible Say About Suicide 200x300 What Does The Bible Say About Suicide?What does the Bible say about suicide? Well, the truth is that the answer is fairly simple. The Scriptures tell us that we are never to murder anyone. In fact, one of the Ten Commandments says this: "You shall not murder" (Exodus 20:13). That includes everyone from the youngest child to the oldest adult and it even includes yourself. Suicide is self-murder, and killing yourself is evil in the eyes of God. Unfortunately, suicide is rampant both in the United States and around the world. According to Wikipedia, in 2005 suicides in the United States outnumbered homicides by nearly 2 to 1. That means there were approximately twice as many suicides as there were murders. That is staggering.  But the United States is not alone.  Wikipedia also reports that worldwide suicide rates have increased 60 percent over the last 50 years.  Something is terribly, terribly wrong.  The truth is that the world is increasingly rejecting God's Word, and when that happens the results are not going to be good.

You see, God places a very high value on all life.  In fact, in the Law of Moses the penalty was death for even accidentally killing an unborn child.  In Exodus 21:22-25 we read this.....

If men who are fighting hit a pregnant woman and she gives birth prematurely but there is no serious injury, the offender must be fined whatever the woman's husband demands and the court allows. But if there is serious injury, you are to take life for life, eye for eye, tooth for tooth, hand for hand, foot for foot, burn for burn, wound for wound, bruise for bruise.

God holds us accountable for the loss of human life - whether that life is unborn or "too old" or anywhere in between.  He does not approve of the murder of any life.  That includes self-murder.

In the Scriptures we see some of the wickedest men committing suicide.  For example, Judas Iscariot killed himself after he betrayed Jesus as we read in Matthew 27:5.....

So Judas threw the money into the temple and left. Then he went away and hanged himself.

Suicide is murder and it is a very serious sin.  In Revelation 21:8, we read about the final destiny of murderers who never repent and give their lives to Jesus Christ.....

But the cowardly, the unbelieving, the vile, the murderers, the sexually immoral, those who practice magic arts, the idolaters and all liars—their place will be in the fiery lake of burning sulfur. This is the second death.

But are there people out there who are incredibly depressed and who feel that life is no longer worth living? 

Of course.

But they are wrong.

Life is worth living.  In John 10:10, Jesus said that He came in order that we  "may have life, and have it to the full."

Having a relationship with God and living for Him will give a person more meaning and purpose to life than they could have ever imagined that they could have.  When you become a Christian, God can replace your pain and depression with joy and passion.  If you let Him, He will take away your loneliness and fill you up with love.

Once you end your life there is no coming back.  Your life is over.

But if you are considering suicide, the great news is that there is hope for you.

Perhaps that is even why you have stumbled across this article - to find that hope.

The truth is that the God of the universe is real and He loves you.

In fact, He loves you so much that He sent His Son to die on the cross to pay the penalty for your sins.

If you will ask His Son, the Lord Jesus Christ, into your life, He will forgive your sins and will give you eternal life.

Talk about the ultimate happy ending.

To learn more about how you can ask Jesus Christ into your life right now, we encourage you to read our article entitled "What Does The Bible Say About Salvation?"

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  • Linda

    I belive Christ is my salvation, However the life kiving in this world just isn;t worth it anymore. i have no happiness here. I believe in god’s love that even if I take my life he will not turn me away. I try to reach out to others but people these days just don’t have the time. The community I live in is so different, Im such an outsider. Been her for 24 years and it is so hard to find relationships. So I just don’t know where to turn. Been even trying to reach out through FB I feel so lonely. I have a few friends but life will go on with them without me so will the live I have touched through my job. Thanks for letting me write????

    • Admin

      Linda:

      What is causing you so much pain?

      Michael

    • Someone

      Linda, if you get this message, I would like to help you. I feel the exact same feelings.

    • Frankie Loyd

      For everyone:
      I have been saddened by the apparent suicidal death of Mr. Don Cornelius. Long ago, I myself attempted suicide. I do understand the agony of living life without HOPE! Jesus came and got me, spoke loving words of compassion and lifted me from the darkness about to take my life. He saved me!In more ways than one! I wouldn’t be here without Him!

      There are many reasons people do it. Be it depression, cowardice, fear of greater torture and suffering; embarrassment, shame, illness,financial loss, loneliness or the death of another. At one point or another, we will all experience these things.

      But there is Good News…

      All these things can be overcome! Even viewing the death of a loved one in the proper way, helps bring healing to those left behind. If you are depressed and feel there is no way out… First off…. That is a LIE!! There is HOPE! Suicide is a final solution for a temporary problem! No matter how long we go through a thing, IT WON’T LAST FOREVER; it just feels that way!

      YOU ARE VALUABLE! YOU ARE IMPORTANT! No… I don’t personally know you! But I once shared your thoughts and feelings. GET HELP NOW!! I want to say just turn to GOD! But truth is… if there isn’t real surrender and a true desire to know HIM, releasing yourself and all your former certainties, giving yourself completely to Him in Truth… I don’t know… I only say this because years ago… I did the saved thing, going to church, Sunday school, I even prayed… calling on Him to help my problems but the only thing that changed… was I put on a dress, carried a bible and gave others a ride to church.And did I even hear from GOD? No! But one of His Promises says…? If I abide in Him, He would abide in me… that didn’t happen either… You see, there can’t be two GOD’s in the room, only One! We want to tell GOD how to do it,insisting on our way mingled with His. When we have doubts and disbelief,! this doesn’t produce faith! Without FAITH it’s impossible to please GOD; for when you come to GOD, you must believe that He is whole heartily and know when you call, He will answer! Only then will you be rewarded. It didn’t happen for me at that time because I was not abiding… But years later proved otherwise. I was an empty vessel when He found me, fully persuaded I’m a sinner before a Holy GOD. Call upon Him in Truth! He will never let you down, talk to Him! Tell Him everything. Don’t assume because He’s GOD He already knows… He does! But He wants to hear it from you! In Truth! Search yourself… you will be surprised at what you find out about yourself! You are more then what you appear to be! You need to know that! Know that! PLEASE GET HELP NOW! We need you! Look at what GOD through His son has done for me, I’m here and writing to you, not dead! If you are sincere, HE will do the same for you! Don’t allow this world to overcome you! Jesus said… be of good cheer, I have overcome the world! You can too! If you ever need an ear or someone to Praise with, share your testimony, look me up on face book… Frankie UnderHisWings Loyd

      Written with Love for your endurance in this life!

    • GogoCharli

      Linda?? Are you still with us? Please say yes!!! :-( Contact me, please, read Katrinika’s and/or Vicki’s posts where I commented, I am just pending approval to get it posted…

    • lekesha

      Hello Linda, I just read your letter and I pray you have given life a second chance. It has sadden me to hear that you are in such pain. PLEASE hear me. I believe you are in pain, but believe God wants you to be happy and he has great things in your life and if you give in too soon you will never know. If someone in your live is making you feel that you don’t matter. Move far away from them. Get involved in a church put everything you have into God and the church and I promise you will find Love and peace. You are one day away from something wonderful DONT GIVE UP.
      email me at Speakoutproductions@yahoo.com to let me know how you are doing.

    • Kristen

      I just want to say to ANYONE who is considering self-harm that SATAN WORKS PHOTOGRAPHICLY. Meaning, he CAPTURES AN IMAGE OF US ON OUR WORST DAY and uses that to torment, sow doubt, torture, destroy relationships, etc. “you’ll always have these bills/crappy job/no one loves you/you’re useless” He waits until we’re having a really bad day. BUT HE CAN’T SHOW US HOW GOD IS TRYING TO BLESS US IN THESE SITUATIONS. Bad does happen, yes. But good can come out of it. It takes baby steps to get back up that hill but YOU CAN DO IT WITH THE POWER OF OUR HEAVENLY FATHER WHO THINKS YOU’RE SO BEAUTIFUL AND SO SPECIAL HE CREATED YOU IN HIS IMAGE. Do not lose heart. Read psalms and proverbs. Do not lose heart. You are not an accident . I pray that these words give you the encouragement you need and loving support you seek.

    • Guy

      Hope your still living.

      This too shall pass.

      There’s light at the end of the tunnel.

      Stop thinking these are just words. It means it will be over soon. Do you have no longsuffering?

      I hope so. Live life happily

  • Eddie

    My fiends mother committed suicide because she had an illness and could not handle the pain after Many years . She was on morphine and had depression later discovered she was very religious . What hapens to people who commit suicide from depression etc… Although they believe they are going to heaven. Please advise Luther when left Catholicism he burrows people that commited suicide . Please let me know is there any chance she is in heaven since she lived a good life ?

  • Ann

    Linda I lost a brother to suicide and it hurts! My whole family is hurting bad! Can’t even describe how my mom is feeling. Think about the pain you will do to others! Suicide is a selfish act! please give your problems to god! Just pray pray pray! trouble dont last forever!!

  • Mark

    I would like to point out that you didn’t answer the question in this article, you just danced around it. And eddie, you don’t get into heaven by living a good life, it is only through Jesus that we can

  • Betty

    Jesus paid the ultimate price for everyone.
    Life can really bring many disappointments, rejection, frustation as well as happiness,& peace.
    Jesus experienced every temptation, rejection,
    during His life on earth but that is why He is Our Savior because He knows how we feel in every area. Depression is not a God given gift, it is spawned by satan who goal for man is destruction.
    Stay Christ-Centered and He will handle the adversity.

  • Kim

    I don’t think people want to die, I just don’t want to live in this pain anymore, I am a supposedly a devote Christian, but the pain of depression is unbearable. My son is a drug addict and tells me everyday it is my fault his father left us. What could be worse than knowing you failed as a mother, I am not afraid to die, I can no longer stand the heartbreak of living,

    • Admin

      Kim:

      Please do not give up. I know that it is hard. But you did not fail as a mother. And whatever happened in the past can be turned around with God.

      As a Christian, you can have the ultimate happy ending. God has forgiven your sins and has given you eternal life. You are going to get to live forever.

      Please hang in there. Find some people at your church that you an talk to about all of this. That is a huge thing that you need right now – someone that you can talk to.

      If you would like to talk to me or my wife please drop us an email at guestpostsandsubmissions (at) hotmail.com

      Michael

  • Jenny

    My grandfather recently committed suicide and it is incredibly painful to us all. To anyone considering suicide please try to remember that your life and body is not your own but it belongs to God. Please honor God with your body. It is satan that tells you that this life is unbearable. Please guard yourself with prayer and the word and surround yourself with Christian brothers and sisters.

  • Troy

    Linda:

    I want to encourage you to let you know that there are people who are around you right now that love you. David was a man after God’s own heart and he felt depressed when he was running from his own son. Elijah, a great prophet of God, felt like a failure after he defeated the 450 prophets of Baal, but got a letter from Jezebel that caused him to run a hide in a cave. But God told him that even though he felt alone, there were 7,000 people that had not bowed to Baal and needed him. Many times we can only see as far as our need, but the sun shines everyday, but sometimes you can’t see it because of the clouds.

  • Antonio

    Recently I am starting thinking seriously about suicide. I was happy man, once I went to see the doctor due to minor problems, but she gave me very strong medicine (Medrol) I was allergic to. First I started to have physical side effects, and then I started to have mental problems, I feel I am different person, feel disconnected to the world. I can’t find myself, whole world seems different. I just see myself hanging. I had to start taking antypsihotic. But before this medicine I was quite normal man. If you search Medrol you will see many people being victim of this medication. This is devil’s medication.

    I ask myself, if I commit suicide in lost state should I go to hell or the doctor who prescribed me medicine. Two other doctors confirmed I realy didn’t need it. Before I never thought about suicide. Now, my reality is changed, I see just fear and want to end up with my life. Another solution is end up in mental institution. It is also hell.

    • chris

      Antonio, I understand your position and your pain. I myself have suffered from depression, anxiety , and abuse from trusted ones throughout my childhood and adult life. I too have been put on dangerous antipsychotics etc. and the meds have only seemed to increase my thoughts of suicide and hopelesness. The pill mills of the world do not care about you or the damage that their devil pills have caused you. My suggestion would to be to file a lawsuit against the doc that prescribed the meds that destroyed your mental health and well-being. Put the doc out of business so that they may never hurt anyone again just for the profits that the drug companies push upon them. they are evil and working for the devil! God will protect you and punish the evil doctors! grace be to GOD the almighty! Nothing is ever worth the pain and suffering that your loved ones will endure by your passing. make the docs suffer by hitting their wallets and taking their medical license, Do not KILL yourself! God loves you and has a plan for all of us whether we see it now or not. one day we will all see his glory! AMEN

  • roy

    I am in poor health caring for my 70 yr. old wife who is disabled with advanced Parkinson’ & early dementia. We have lost everything & live an old house that is in deplorable condition. I cannot kill myself because she has no one to care for her. But I am tempted to do so, the thought goes through my mind every few minutes all day. I cry out to God one minute & curse Him the next. I am going to hell anyway so what difference does a few months or years make. If it were not for my duty to her I should go ahead & end it. I can no longer believe in prayer but maybe someone out there can reach God for me. I try but just cannot reach Him

    • Admin

      Roy:

      You do not have to go to hell. There is hope for you and your wife. You both can have the ultimate happy ending if you will only reach out for God. Please read this article….

      http://whatdoesthebiblesayabout.com/

      Michael

    • D

      Roy,

      I read this article a couple of weeks ago, and your post came to mind this morning. It’s been a year since you posted, but if you happen to come around this site, I wanted to give you a couple of things. First, I hope things have improved for you. If you are still thinking of hurting yourself, don’t be reluctant to seek help for your pain. Here’s some quick links for you:
      US National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/ (includes phone, TTY, and a chat service)
      For email and a link to international phone numbers: http://www.samaritans.org/
      Keep in mind, these are secular organizations, so I only provide them to help you out of a jam. Only Jesus will be able to reach God for you, so ask him for forgiveness of your sins, and bear in mind that not everything on the websites I provided or the help you recieve is guaranteed to be correct, but if it helps at all, then good. I’ll put in some more prayers for you, and I hope things are better.

      • D

        One more thing came to mind. If you know of a good church you can attend, please do. In times of difficulty, that may seem like a ridiculous idea, but if the opportunity to attend a good church comes, take it!

  • Doug

    True life in Christ is found when we don’t try so much to see how Christ can help change our circumstances, but when we are willing to bend to His circumstances. Christ will lead us into a life where we can testify to others about His goodness, and there will be true joy birthed in this. I can testify to this personally.

    Read Psalm 51:17 – The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit: a broken and a contrite heart, O God, thou wilt not despise.

    God hears our cries in our dark hours, and will bring us out of the darkness. Don’t lose hope!

  • Al

    To all those that are hurting inside and comtemplating suicide, never forget that God loves you so much and nobody or anything can change that. I know trust me what it is to feel lonely, depressed and with suicidal thoughts. But remember, that is what the devil wants you to think, and make you stop believing in Gods faithfullness to his people. Another thing the devil wants you to believe is that no one cares and that you are lonely in this world that is completely untrue, there are many people that can help, and if you dont find any, ask God to bring someone into your life and trust me he will, the bible says that God is near those who are suffering. Now if you are thinking about suicide, remember that hell is an eternal solution to a temporary trouble, it is never a plan b for life not going well. Now what helped me was to come before the throne of God thru prayer and in my lowest time in my life ask God to help me, I am here today because of the grace of GOD. The bible says do not lean into your own understanding but in all your ways acknowledge GOD. Remember that you have probably tried everything in your knowledge and your abilities, so now give God a chance and you will not be dissapointed, but give him the real chance that he deserves, do not let thoughts of discouragement enter into your mind, persevere and you will see the salvation of God. May our God bless you and protect you.

  • allen

    it doesnt matter…..

  • Ola

    …when i hear depression,i feel loneliness….you get depressed when you keep too much to yourself.Mingle with people in church and outside church.go out there and have fun. imbibe the habit in you.be outgoing and depression will disappear….stop self pity and be an extrovert.

  • Vicki

    I am a mother of 3 and my middle child was taken from me by false allegations of rape by his step father. There were no findings and my husbands name was cleared, but the courts still gave my ex temp. Custody till Sept, till an investigation of just how stressed out my son (who is 4) by all of the fighting. I have had several restraining orders against his father due to domestic violence towards me in front of our son and all his psychology records show he is afraid of his father and yet while I was in court praying they would return Anthony to us, they did the complete opposite. Maybe my kids would be better off with me gone. That psycho has my son and the court system did NOTHING…maybe this is a sign that I should be gone and my kids would be better off without me. There would be no more fighting in Anthonys life.

    • Admin

      Vicki:

      Never give up. With God there is always hope that things can turn around.

      Please seek out some godly people to talk about this with. We have all been at difficult points in our lives. The important thing is to never give up.

      Michael

    • GogoCharli

      Vicki, I’ve been in a “very” similar situation as you not too long ago…, and boy, when one get’s involved in the legal system, it seems all hope is lost @ times… :-( I’m telling you by experience… divorced 2x and each case was pretty insane. Let me assure you that no matter where your children are placed, it’s not because of your fault… It could be the information presented at the courts were either falsified or not updated to your current status and instead it easier to just dig up bones from you closet… Don’t let it get to you, fight, fight four your children, they need you!! I lost my mother last yr on Feb 11, 2011 to terminal cancer, leaving me being a 13yr old to care for (now 14) as the date is rapidly approaching can’t help to see his pain… He breaks down like a baby uncontrollably.. He’s in good care with me, I love my brother, he’s my son now, but no matter how mush I fill in my mother’s shoes, I can never, “EVER” replace her… Do you understand that to a child, a mother is “EVERYTHING” no matter if she was a drunk, or selling her body or turning to drugs…, a mother, will always be a mother, no matter what, and don’t forget, Jehovah God (Psalms 83:13) has given you much blessing through the means of your children(James 1:17). I now have 5 children, and feel so blessed, I too thought all was lost, I felt like just wanted the earth to open up and swallow me whole!! But I matter!! You matter!! You are a beautiful person who is going through a very rough patch…

  • Pepin

    In JESUS mighty name I pray.

  • Ashley

    I’m 16. And one of my good friends who was 14 killed himself this past weekend.. I ask myself why he did it but no one will ever no but him & god. And I believe that if each and every one of us ask god to help us with out problems and the things we are going though he will help us. It may not be as soon as we want it to be, but give it time. The lord works in wonderful ways.:)

  • Katrinika

    I have yet to find a church where I hear more about God’s love for me than I do about that church’s need for my money. I can’t find anyone to talk to who doesn’t have “what can you do for me?” as their primary concern. Call me cynical, but that’s what it’s come down to.

    • GogoCharli

      Katrinika, how may I get in touch with you? I’d like to scripturally express to you how much Jehovah God (Psalm 83:18)not just loves humanity, but how much interest & love He has for you as an individual(Matthew 10:29-31; John 3:16). He even knew you before you were formed in your mother’s womb(Psalms 139:16). I want you to do nothing for me but tell me what you would like to know, I will pray & research(and to the best of my knowledge with Jehovah’s holy spirit & guidance) to give you the best answer possible based on bible scriptures.
      (1 John 4:7,8; 1 John 5:3: Isaiah 41:13)
      Hope this brings some comfort to you if wish not to contact me <3

  • Samantha

    My Mother killed herself on August 25th. I am broken. She was depressed and lonely for many years, it is all so heart wrentching. I truly believe that God would not send anyone to hell that was in so much pain. She did not kill herself out of revenge or anger, but pain, hurt and sadness. She loved Jesus and I think really wanted to be with him. She is innocent and a child again, sitting on his lap, laughing, happy. That is truly how I see it, have to see it. Jesus would NOT send anyone in that much pain to hell and no where in the Bible does it state that. Yes, it is a sin, but I truly believe God can take away any sin, and she is in Heaven with him now.

  • denise

    I am on facebook Linda and I would like to be your friend. I am also a born again christian and I do understand about depression and this world we live in. I work in a high school and the teenagers are so terrible that i get very frustrated. Please look me up on facebook. my name is Denise Durant. Please send me an invite and I will reply. Hope to hear from you soon and keep praying to Jesus, he loves you more than we can ever impagine.

  • http://Whatdoesthebiblesay Amanda Hingle

    I am fighting a fight with satan and have been since 1999. My husband is satans angel. He is trying to destroy me and my children. We are going through divorce and child custody. He took them from me in 2006 – 2009. He did not feed them bath them brush teeth or any of the things that parents are responsible for. He dropped them off at his parents house and went to Virginia. When they could no longer keep them, they called my to pick them up. I got them fixed back up and healthy again. They are doing well in school. Now that I have filled for divorce, he agreed as long as I agreed to joint custody. I refused. Now he is trying to prove that I am crazy by contacting and pulling files from therapists I have seen over the years. One year before I was married, I had hit a girl with my car and almost killed her. Soon after Chris showed up and I fell right into his trap. I wish I would have never been born! I would have never had such a hard life and my children would have not been dragged through the mud because of what I did. It is not fair. I hate everything about myself. I can’t do anything right. I feel like I am in a downward spiral and no matter how much I pray and go to church, things don’t get any better. Sometimes Ifeel like God does not listen to me. I am in this all alone.

    • Admin

      Amanda:

      Never give up. Just commit yourself to prayer every day and try to get some Christian friends around you that can help you during this time.

      I know that it is hard. But you should not hate everything about yourself. Instead, you should understand that you are deeply, deeply loved by God and that He will help you if you will just reach out to Him with all of your heart.

      I will pray for you Amanda. You are not alone. Never, ever give up. Keep fighting and keep praying.

      Michael

    • Moe

      Hi Amanda! If I may give a little insight to the Trial that you are facing. First, you are not along “If God is for us, who can be against us” Romans 8:31? We all face trials and tribulations in life and that is inevitable but you must understand “In all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us” Romans 8:37. Do not allow your past to haunt your future because if you have repented of your sins the bibles says “If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness” 1 John 1:9. I know that words of comfort is easier said than done but as children of Christ Jesus we know that “We walk by Faith and not by Sight” 2 Corinthians 5:7. Jeremiah said the same thing about that “He wished that he was never born” Jeremiah 20:17. But God told him “For I know the plans that I have for you” Jeremiah 29:11. Amanda I know it seems unfair, unreasonable, hard, etc…but God said “His grace is sufficient for His power is made perfect in our weakness, Therefore I boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me” 2 Corinthians 12:9. When Praises goes up Blessings come down. Amanda trust God through it all and I know without a shadow of a doubt He will see you through. Remember our timing is not God’s timing but you must hold on to His unchaining hand. “Weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning” (Psalms 30:5). Let me testify I came back from Iraq started my Hotshot business my wife 8 months pregnant at the time my truck broke $6700 to fix it. I didn’t have the money, no work, no money wife was taken off work early expecting short term to pay but received no income 2 months later no income but bills still coming. House about to be foreclosed on, cars about to be repo’d, lights, water, gas, and cable has been threating to be turned off. But “Oh, Taste and see that the LORD is good” what I did was got even closer to God I said LORD here I am what is it that you want me to do. You see sometimes God “allows” some things to happen in our lives because He wants to get our attention. An there are two things that will happen. We will either be pushed further away from Him (Cause that is what the Devil really wants because we will not make it by ourselves) or we will draw closer to Him (And that is what God really wants) so that we can see that He is all that you need. But here I am to this day still in the storm but God have not let me go hungry one day, I have not slept outside one nite, I have not lite one candle, I have not skipped one beat. When you “Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not to your own understand He will direct your path”Proverb 3:5-6. HALLELUJAH!!! He is listening to you but ask Him what is it, that He want you to do. Tell Him here I am LORD you are the Potter and I am the Clay. And He will hear and answer your Prayers. I will pray for you and I Love You with the Love of our Lord and savior Jesus Christ.

  • scott

    You ppl, keep saying that God loves you God loves you… Yes I know God loves me (us).. that is why he came down in the form of a human and died for us… Jesus says who ever hates his life will gain his life.. I do hate my life, I wasn’t sexual abused, or hate my parents, I’m 30 years old and I’m married but.I have no biological children I do have a wonderful step daughter that I love as if she was my own… I have a cool pretty family they are selfish.and greedy but they are ok.. my Mom and Dad are dead.. other than my step daughter I really have no reason to live seriously, this world is full of hate and deception, our government is the most sinister and vile of all… new world order demons they are.. I’m just done I want out I want to go home to Jesus…

    • Admin

      Scott:

      Please hang in there. Jesus does not want you to give up. Jesus said that in this world you will have trouble, but that you should take heart because He has overcome the world.

      I know it looks hard right now. Keep on praying and never, ever give up.

      Things will get better if you keep on praying and keep on fighting.

      Michael

  • Steve

    I can definitely relate to Linda. In fact, I once has a very special person whose name was Linda. And even after many years, and finally having a child of my own for the very first, I find that life can be painful and very depressing. Doctors, therapists, and even friends ALL CLAIM to have the magic answers for everyone else who feels like this. When in fact, their own lives aren’t much better. Doctors, Police, and everyone else in between loves to play the BLAME game. “It’s always the guys fault”. And every idea of assistance always takes the form of “Destruction”. This World is EVIL. No question about it, and every answer to life’s problems is ALWAYS rooted in EVIL. (with a smile, of course)

    So, the bible is crystal clear that this world and everything in it and every person’s heart and mind who is not saved is under the control of the EVIL one.

    I pray everyday. And even after prayer, I feel I still might lose it, but I keep praying and crying out to GOD. I trust in NO man. And I read versus of the bible on the Internet every chance I get.

    This, I found, has kept me alive. For now.

  • Sharon

    NOTHING can keep you from the Love of Christ. Nothing!!! There’s only one unpardonable sin and that’s the rejection of Jesus as your Savior.

  • Pastor Joan

    Greetings brethren, may God shine His love over all of you. It saddens me tremendously to read the pain that many of you are enduring. I wish I could hug all of you and tell you that God can make the difference. In the book of Isaiah 53 there is a powerful prophetic word. It says that Jesus was going to be known as a man of sorrows. Jesus Christ, our Lord endured the most agonizing pains. He endured desolation from his beloved friends. He suffered the humiliation that would ave broken anyone to its core. He suffered the separation from His eternal Father. Yet…He endured it…..he took it, He understood the price for sin and its burden. That is why He is the one and only PERFECT example which removes any possible excuse. Many can say “well, he was God so that is why he handled it”…..and I would say to those that think that way “EXACTLY” He handled it because He was God and that was exactly the purpose. We are not God, but scripture tells us time and time again that THROUGH him we will be victorious. He gave us His Spirit to live in us and that anything we ask the Father in his name it would be given. The problem is that we are unable to seek him in truth and in spirit. Not for healing, not for miracles, not for solutions…but for a relationship, for LOVE……He can help you and He wants to help you….just truly let him in. Let him take over, become dependent on him, unlearn everything that you have learned and let him redecorate your mind and heart and life. LET HIM….and you will see…..He is no man to lie, His promises are true. He said that we were going to face trouble, it wasnt easy for the early church. Even today many of our brethren face persecution in other countries. IT IS NOT EASY…..but when you get to know Him and build a relationship with him…..everything is worth it. The pain, the desolation…because he becomes your all and he satisfies.

  • James G

    Unfortunately I disagree with almost everything I see written here. God does not answer my prayers and I could never figure out why God answers us in whispers when satan answers in definite words. We live in an occult influenced planet where everything from our food and entertainment is satan controlled. There is no escape God does nothing and yet satan everyday gains a greater stronghold. I see nothing getting repaired our air, our water. Yes I hear of a few “healings’ here and there but nothing definite.
    Many uf us cannot control the damage it our grey matter. The trauma that has caused me to suffer every day. I suffer from depression, asthma, anxiety, mouth disease(gums), and many other things. I pray and God never heals me only my pocketbook seems to give me any relief. People commit suicide because God answers only certain people at certain times. Many of the scriptures never made it into the bible. There is nothing current in the bible it is the same 1000 years ago as it is today. Very few people like myself get any type of healing from the bible. This is the same book catholic pedopohiles read from as well as satanists. Suicide is peoples way of seeing if God is dead or really there. I see God through science and through his handiwork but in the real world he is dead. He is not on the airwaves, in schoolbooks, he has effectively been killed off in the mainstream, and I have never felt his force. But God does nothing he relies on what he did long ago, with no updates or new information. He does not show his power in current events. He does not destroy the deeds of the evil he lets them do what they want. Nowhere in the world do we ever wait until the last second when time is almost up to do something important but God does. He is going to wait until every heart is turned black, every but of air is filled with radiation, and every drop of water is undrinkable. Every child will be molested unless God does something NOW!. But he doesnt. Suicide is based on that frustration.

  • onthebrink

    Hello, I need to talk to sum1 desperately. I’m feeling very suicidal. It just hurts so much n I want it to go away.. Please anybody, I don’t wna rob my 9month old daughter of her mother but it just hurts so much

    • Admin

      Onthebrink:

      Please do not give up. There is always hope. God can turn your life around.

      For everyone out there that needs someone to talk to immediately, you can go to http://www.lovelines.org/ or you can call them at 612-379-1199.

      I know that it hurts. But please do not give in. The best chapters of your life can be just ahead if you will hang in there and turn to God.

      Michael

  • onthebrink

    you can contact me. llongisland@gmail.com

  • Paul

    This article is so depressing it wants to make me commit suicide even more. It’s like saying “come on cheer up, God loves you, its not that bad; put a smile on your face and everything will be fine”. Right! In paragraph 8 this article puts me right there among the adulterers, sexually immoral, liars, unbelieving and vile murderers. Gee thanks, that really helped.

    • Admin

      If you will repent of your sins and turn to Jesus Christ and you can have a life that is more wonderful than you ever dreamed of.

      There is no reason for anyone to commit suicide.

  • Anthony

    My cousin just committed suicide this week and left a letter behind saying he sought god and was praying to him. He was very depressed. In his letter he said that he stuggled and failed at everything, he was in pain and was suffering and had a very hard life. He couldn’t take it no more and took his life. When I went to this house he was renting to get his stuff, I went to his bedroom and saw this small altar he had in a corner with a small bottle filled with holy water, books of prayers, rosary, and images of saints etc on it. It seems like he really tried to reach to god for help. Now I read on this website that we got to hold on and keep praying, keep the hope and faith alive until we get an answer from god. And I think about all the people that waited and waited and waited for an answer or help, but never got it.

    Here’s this story that I saw once on tv about a murderer who got sentenced to life in prison saying that before he killed his victim, the victim was imploring to him in the name of god not to be killed. So he told the victim, that he’s gonna give him an hour alone, strapped on a chair to pray to god for help and if god showed up or did something, he would let him go. After an hour he came back and killed the man. When he was asked by the reporter why he did that, he replied “god never showed up to help him”.

    So if you keep saying, believe and keep praying and god will answer, then you know what,…., god may need a current calender and a watch with timezones and everything on it, because sometimes he’s way way too late with the answer.

    The thing is, that there are absolutely NO guaranties that by asking god for help, that you will actually get the help!

    So if somebody is suffering badly day by day, for months or years, and they ask god to stop/cure the suffering, but it just gets worse and worse, then I understand why they may commit suicide after getting fed up with the waiting for so long. It even makes me think that committing suicide, may just be THE ANSWER itself that they received from god.

    I mean, how long do you have to wait? How long do you have to suffer? How long before you get an answer from god? Some people say “as long as it takes”, some say “as long as it needs” or “eventually”. Well for my cousin it just took god way too long and now he’s dead.

    It is hard to stay in faith and keep believing and praying, when you see things just out of your window happening. You know it makes me wonder if there is really a god out there. And if there is, then WHY does he allow all the evil things to happen, all the diseases, all the natural disasters, the famine, terrorism (in HIS name), the pain and suffering that we see and go through on this world,……why why WHY?? I just don’t get it, I really don’t!! How can I see a child suffering of cancer and say god is good, how can I see people starving around the world and say god is good, how can I turn on the tv and see that a natural disaster wiped out whole cities and say god is good,……HOW?

    I am just so so confused and angry with god. I just don’t get him. I don’t understand his ways and why he permits bad things to happen.

    • Admin

      Anthony:

      God has given us free will. God does not cause or control everything that happens.

      Humanity has rebelled against God, and this rebellion has caused a lot of pain and suffering in the world. We have rejected God and chosen to do evil. That is our fault and not the fault of God.

      The vast majority of what happens in this world is the result of natural cause and effect. God does intervene from time to time. He intervenes more often when His people call on Him.

      But in general what happens in this world is the result of our own choices. Humanity has made absolutely horrible choices and this has created a massive amount of pain and yet we continue to reject God.

      God does do absolutely incredible miracles every day, but most of the world still refuses to believe. You can check out a site that has documented thousands of real life miracles right here….

      http://www.sidroth.org/

      When someone commits suicide they are giving up on life and giving up on God.

      That is not the fault of God.

      Yes, there is tons of pain and suffering in the world. But we have caused it.

      You mentioned cancer. Cancer rates have absolutely exploded because of what we have put into our food, our water and our air.

      But instead of turning to the God that heals cancer (yes, there have been countless documented cases) we continue to reject Him and continue to pollute the earth even more with cancer-causing agents.

      So who is the one to blame?

      Why is there starvation in the world?

      Because of our sin.

      Why is there war?

      Because of our sin.

      Why is there poverty?

      Because of our sin.

      If we turned to God and lived according to His ways, life would be so much better.

  • Kelly

    @Admin “God does not cause or control everything that happens.”

    Then your god is not omnipotent. If you have power to control or cause things to happen, then god’s not ALL powerful is he? If you have just an ounce of power, god doesn’t have ALL the power.

    Now either god has all the power and you have no freewill. Or you have freewill and god is not all powerful. It cannot be both ways.

    • Admin

      Kelly:

      That is a complete logical fallacy.

      Just because you are all-powerful does not mean that you have to control everything.

      Power and control are two totally separate issues. God could certainly control everyone and everything like puppets, but he has chosen to give humanity free will. That does not make Him any less powerful.

  • laura fiore

    God does answer. He speaks to us through others, through His Word by reading the Bible, and sometimes through circumstances and trials. Rom. 8:37 “Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us.” Rom. 5:5 “Now hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out in our hearts by the Holy Spirit who was given to us.” Rev. 3:21 “To him who overcomes I will grant to sit with Me on My throne, as I also overcame and sat down with My Father on His throne.” Hold every thought captive, don’t let it take root in your mind. Give it to God and pray for His strength. We can’t do it alone. Seek a Bible teaching church like a Calvary Chapel near you; and stay surrounded by other believers. The enemy attacks when we isolate ourselves and he is a liar and hates us because he hates God and because we are made in the image of God! Draw near to God and He will draw near to you and ask the Holy Spirit to help you! 2 Corinth. 5:17 “Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new.”

  • JR

    I just found out one day ago that my home is going into foreclosure, and seeking counseling for that issue, and i havent slept well since that notice i got in the mail, and trying to make my vehicle payments. I got laidoff 2 years ago and still searching for a job, unemployment benefits ran out, and things are getting really tough here…sometimes i do think about suicide but i think of all the good things in life and how one can start over again with a clean slate. But, the thoughts keep pouring into my head and i will admit it gets hard to think straight and make decisions. Being the 23rd of december its hard to think about christmas and all it represents, even the holiday music is hard to listen to cause of the pain it brings. This will be hands down the worst year of my life, i need some spiritual healing to get over there turmoil in my life…

    • Admin

      JR:

      I know that things are really hard right now, but your life is not over.

      Many of us have been at incredibly low points in our own lives, but we found ways to turn things around.

      Our life does not consist of what we own, but I realize that the materialism of this time of the year can be very depressing for someone that has almost lost everything.

      Keep hanging in there and keep reaching out to God.

      Also, try to reach out to family and friends if you can. It is amazing how our family and friends can help us through difficult times.

  • Adam

    So i have horrible teeth and a jaw that is thinning and feels like its about to break I have no money and cannot find any way to afford the costs of the procedures I would need. I ask god what to do. I feel in my heart he says to get it fixed but how can I when I can’t afford to? That is ky reason for wanting to kill myself.

  • lynda

    I read the articles with interest.
    Today I said to my christian GP that I dont want to live , I always thought I would take life by 50
    two years ago I did go to jump but the hospital told me a angel stopped me from dying, looking back I agree, I just did it randomly.
    I said to my GP today that I believe God knows all I have been through and I feel he is by me and I feel its ok. but I have done a deal that I will take medication, and go to church, and asked GP to pray , I willl do this for four weeks , desperation and see what happens, I was taught years ago bout hell but I feel deep down that God loves me and really knows .

  • Gerry

    I have read some amazing things here. It does hit hard, as people do see their current situation and see it as their future situation, a never-ending struggle and spiral downhill, where there is no God to bring them out, no matter how many times we call upon them.

    The hardest part of all this is trusting in God and that He has a plan that we cannot possibly imagine. We all (or at least most of us) heard of Moses. The man who God used to free the Jews. The one who brought the plagues to pressure Pharoah. The man that parted the Red Sea. Yet few know of the earlier life of Moses.

    Exodus 2:11-14 shows Moses rising up and killing an Egyptian who was beating a Hebrew. He thought he got away with it until he tried to stop two Hebrews from fighting and one said will Moses judge by killing one of them, like that Egyptian. With that, Moses fled from being an adopted prince of Egypt to a poor shepherd. Not for a week. Not for a month. Not for a year. But 40 years, he fled. Moses was in his early 80s before returning to Egypt at God’s command.

    The sad thing about suicide is that it puts an end to the book that God is writing about you. This story could have went “Moses fled and, overcome by guilt, he hanged himself.” We never would have even heard of Moses if the story ended this way. We take the pen from God and put an ending for ourselves as we see fit. And I’ll admit, for 10 years, I thought of taking that pen myself to end the story.

    As a teenager, I was heavily bullied. And it wasn’t “take your lunch money” bullying. It was more “You’re so ugly. Why haven’t you done us the favor and killed yourself?” I grew up poor to a single mother with two sisters (as we got in the way of the personal success my dad was seeking). Somehow we always had food, but I wore the same clothes for 3-4 years. One time, I did answer them and said that the only thing that stops me from doing it was because it would destroy my mother who struggled to raise me. Of course, they laughed, called me a momma’s boy, etc. Almost every day, I thought about taking that pen and ending the story.

    Finally, I graduated from high school and joined the Marines. I didn’t join under the right pretenses though. I had such a bad taste in my mouth of how wicked people can be that I vowed to become stronger. Survival of the Fittest, I was taught. Not only that, but I would be doing the favor to the world by killing the wicked people of this world (which was almost everybody anyway). But God was using all this to bring me to the cross.

    A chaplin taught from the Bible in boot camp and teaches that all have sinned and fallen short of God. I agreed. The world deserves to be condemned to hell. I agreed. God will judge the wicked. And I said “Wow, the Bible is so in touch with reality!” But then he said that (John 3:16) God so loved the world, He gave his only begotten son, so whoever believes on him will not perish, but have everlasting life. I immediately thought “The world doesn’t deserve to live.” To which the chaplin said “Do we deserve it?” The recruits around me said “No!” But God loves us so much that he done so, so that if we believe, we will have eternal life. I gave my life to God that day and God has brought me through near impossible hardships in my 4 years of enlistment.

    The story goes on. I returned to my mom’s house, to a messy divorce of my mom and stepdad. I cared for my mother and sister in that time as the step-in man of the house. A year later, my mom says if I never came back to her house, she would have taken her life by this point. Two years later, I led her and my sister to Christ.

    Several years later, I moved in with my fiance and led her to Christ (and we don’t have a big house and nice car; we live with her parents and are getting by). I then led an in-law to Christ as well. Then I was sent to Florida for work reasons and visited my uncle who I have not seen for a decade. He was alone at the time and I spoke with him about Christ and he told me some false theology that if you die when drunk, hell awaits them. That same night, he got drunk and had a diabetic episode, which I was able to treat him on site for. After that night, he was led to Christ because he would have died if I didn’t happen to stop by that particular day. Coincidence, or is God’s pen moving in this?

    All I can say is take heart and look to God. And there is nothing wrong with praying and saying “God, why are you not healing me? Why are you letting this happen?” Indeed, it seems like the wicked are so successful, but God will judge those who hurt you and don’t repent. Leave the pen in his hands and remember; there is nothing wrong with questioning God. It is only wrong to disobey God. If you think it is wrong to question him, read through the psalms and some of the things the prophets went through. Even Moses questioned God repeatedly and God answered him and refined him to the point where Moses finally understood why God orchestrated all of these events.

    Isaiah 1:18 “Come, let us reason together” says the LORD.
    Isaiah 41:21 Produce your case, says the LORD; bring forth your strong reasons, says the King of Jacob.

    May you take heart. God is not dead. And God may use you and your circumstance to prove it!

  • Edna

    Hello, first I am the 11th child of twelve children. My parents were married for 63 years til my Dads death last Jan 2011. He was a Pastor for 40 years. My baby brother took his life 40 days after my Dad died on 19th Feb last year. One day before his Birthday. He was a loving and had a big heart. My family still cant understand why he did it. He had friends and was loved by many. I saw him a lot and never noticed signs of suicide. I am so hurt and miss him so much. Just cant understand it. He was married for 12 years and had a 17 year old daughter. My family has never known anyone so close to us that took their own life. I had to seek counseling buy in some ways it didnt help. My heart is searching for more comfort. My mom is 81 and is still hanging in there with the lost of her husband and then her baby boy. Its very hard.

  • Duane

    I was teaching our teenagers at church last night out of Philippians and Paul said something quite pertinent.

    In chapter 1 he is writing to the church from prison and even though he is in a horrible situation, he is encouraging the church. Then, in verses 19-25 he expounds on a very intimate subject. He says that he struggles with staying alive versus dying to be with Christ. I know he is talking about his immense love and desire to be with his Savior, but the truth of his entire thihghtis summed up in verse 23. He says that throughout all of his struggle, he knows it is better to remain alive so that God can use him for His good.

    The bottom line is that God has plans for us and we can only fulfill those plans by remaining here. I know that pain can be crippling mentally, emotionally, spiritually and relationally, but Christ has experienced every trouble that we have… and he reminds us that we will be given a way to overcome it.

  • Abby

    I am 14. My friend, Wednesday commited suicide. And, I was wondering, will I ever see him again?? He was not a christian. I am. Help.. pllease

    • http://buddybreathing.wordpress.com Lesley-Anne

      Dear Abby,

      I am so sorry to hear about your friend. It is very hard, no impossible, to make sense of suicide. Unless we personally have felt the darkness, the depression, and the thoughts that there is no other way out, we can never understand. I wish I could give you a hug right now.

      I have read most of the postings here, and there is much disagreement and frustration over details. But, it doesn’t change the fact that so many people today are completely lacking in hope, and that they choose death over life. Just like your young friend did. It is very very sad.

      I don’t think being a ‘Christian’ is the final answer to where your friend is spending eternity. It is about his relationship with God, who he said Jesus was, how he dealt with those questions that matter. And, you will never know if, at the very end of his life, he made peace with God. I don’t think we can know the answer to your question, even though I wish I could say YES. Have faith that your life lived in front of your friend spoke into his heart. The rest is up to him and God.

      Your questions makes me wonder if I am being honest with all my friends, whether I’m having meaningful conversations, whether I’m being there for them in ways that matter. We never know when God will use us to speak some hope into someone who needs it.

      I hope I have given you some hope, and that you will be strong and help the others who have been most hurt by what has happened. I pray that you have skin on people who can hug you and talk with you and pray with you during this difficult time.

      Love in Jesus,

      LAE

  • Frankie Loyd

    @Duane… What a beautiful truth! I pray all who feel despair and hopelessness are able to set their eyes upon your words and live! May our LORD bless and keep you always! Love and Tremendous Light!

  • Jim

    What about someone who became paranoid delusional
    and became mentally ill. This person was trying to find God in the church and was crying out but no one helped. This person was searching for God and in the process hanged herself. So what happens to the mentally ill that kill themselves. Hmmmmmm!!!

  • MalVax321

    To most of you who have thoughts of suicide. I have had problems in the past with these thoughts, but I have realized that God has much bigger plans for all of us. And this is my thought as to why it is not the answer. Take a long look at your life. (pause for this time). Now, look at the life of those in countries that do not have food, shelters, family. Children living on the streets, not because they choose to, but because that’s all they can do. (Pause to think about their life, and being without anyone to care about you at all, and think about how they have the will to survive regardless the situation). When you really look at it, is your life worse then theirs? This is not an answer for everyone, some will look at this and think that this is an attack (believe me, I’m not attacking you, saying that your problems are insignificant, we all have problems, and to you those problems are “larger then life”). Some will look at this and understand that their life is not as bad as it could be (even if it came down to not having money, and not having a job, about to lose your home; if you live in America, there are shelters around the world that will take you in, or help you in finding a job, or even with funds). The biggest thing to remember out of everything, even if just one person doesn’t love you, or care about you. Know that no matter what, I will love you, because of Christ, and what He has commanded, to “Love as I have loved you”. God’s love reaches from the highest mountain, to the lowest of depths. There is no place His love doesn’t reach, and if we truly have Him in our heart, then we know that we are always loved. God Bless.

  • James

    As I understand it, there is only one unforgivable sin which is blaspheme. Even though in the commandments, I don’t believe murder is unforgivable in any form. Only god knows a persons heart. And I believe we live under the new testament since Jesus walked the earth, but if you would like to go back to the old testament there are plenty of places that talk about murder so I would not say your article is accurate.Joshua 10:8-26 is a great example. God even stopped the sun for all this killing. I would not assume that Joshua ended up in hell. Only god knows the true pain and suffering people go through. I would encourage people to pursue god in this area and consider the people you leave behind. No matter who you are there are people that love you and no doubt god loves you. Pick your head up and seek Jesus, I believe he has the answers.

  • Chris

    James! Even better news! The unforgivable sin of blaspheming the Holy Spirit is misunderstood… what it means in full context is fully rejecting His Spirit that is Holy.. what it means is rejecting Jesus Christ is the only unforgivable sin.. but you get billions of opportunity in your life to give him your heart!.. Blaspheming the Holy Spirit literally means you NEVER opened the door when Jesus came knocking.. and then you DIED! People hear me.. suicide is the script handed to you by Satan.. he wants you to carry out his work of stealing, killing and destroying.. with ALL your LIFE find a powerful Word living local church and SERVE others.. this chases the demon of suicide right out.. as you know FIND OUT YOUR PURPOSE! But its your choice.. we can’t say no one cares and end it.. if we reject the House where help is available in God sized ways.. p.s. not all churches are created equal.. how much is the leader of the Church willing to die to himself and his desires.. and LIVE for His Will?

  • susan

    My life took a downturn 6 years ago & it’s been getting progressively worse ever since. People who I’ve known for years and who invited me to lean on have mercilessly betrayed me. Strangers have too. I’ve lost everything through deaths, divorce, moves, more moves, joblessness. I’ve held fast to my faith throughout to no avail. I cry in the morning & at night & have developed rashes around my eyes. I’ve nothing to look forward and pain to look back on. I want to die, but know that’s up to God. help me.

    • Admin

      Susan:

      Please don’t give up.

      We pray that you will not give up.

      No matter how much pain you are going through right now, there is always a way that things can be turned around.

      And if you will turn to Jesus, He will give you eternal life with Him where there will be no more crying or pain ever again.

      Michael

  • D

    If anyone wants to talk and get started with some help, there are numerous websites and hotlines devoted to suicide prevention. The US National Suicide Prevention Lifeline can be reached 24/7 at 1-800-273-8255 (TALK). For TTY users, dial 1-800-799-4889 (4TTY). A website is also available with information and resources, including an online chat, at http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/ If you need a number outside the USA, this site is a good resource: http://www.suicide.org/international-suicide-hotlines.html

    http://www.suicide.org/ Also offers other resources such as emails and articles, help advice and so on. Don’t shy away from getting some help, it can make all the difference. I will pray that all here expressing suffering will find relief.

  • Brian

    I have been thinking of suicide lately, I feel that I have made it through so many challenges in this life and am ready to expire. I Do belive in god, and I hope that he sees the effort I have made to live by his word, but I just can not take his trials anymore. I realize that I may be giving up, but to be honest, I feel I am releasing my spirit into a more happy state. If I am living in misery, then god would not want that, there is no purpose for that. I do hope I do not go to the lakes, but if that is what will happen, so be it. I am willing to accept what will be. I have a few more things to take care of before I exit, but it will be soon.

    • Admin

      Brian:

      Please do not do that.

      Why would you want to commit suicide.

      One thing that I have learned is that God can turn around any situation.

      I hope that you will come back and leave another comment so that we can talk.

      Michael

  • http://yahoo.com Debbie

    I attempted suicide about 6 years ago. I took handfuls of Xanax and Seraquil and put a hose in my care and closed the windows and cried myself to sleep, only to bolt straight up 3 hours after falling asleep. I went to the hospital and the doctors told me I should not be alive, they couldn’t explain how I could be sitting in the E.R. after just the pills but the carbon monoxide from the car. I know that God created a miracle, I was depressed and read the Bible everyday, I was immersed in it, but couldn’t get over the depression of losing my daughter who walked out and left me and went and lived with my mother. She was 17 at the time and my mom who was abusive towards me would not send her home, I felt betrayed by my daughter and my mother. It will be eight years that she left in October 2012, and my mother let her run wild, she ended up graduating with honors while she lived at home with me, but ended up covered with tatoos and piercings and having a baby within 2 years of living with my mom. She stole 12 thousand dollars from my mom and my family said the money had to come out of my inheritence. I have always been emotionally and verbally abused by my family, and when my daughter left it was like a death. I was a single parent and had poured my entire life into her to make sure she had a good life, accepted Christ as her saviour and went to college. She will be 26 in December and never went to college and works at Walmart and lives in a very bad neighborhood with her little girl. I’m not allowed to see my grandchild and my daughter said she hated me and never wanted contact with me again. I’ve forgiven my mother, and my daughter, but I wait on God to understand why this happened to me. What caused her to go to my mom, who now doesn’t want anything to do with my daughter because my mom says “you can’t tell her anything, she just lives a trashy life”. She wasn’t that way when she left, but my mom never held her accountable for anything, and gave her thousands of dollars and she just moved out of my mom’s house 2 months ago. My mom enabled her for nearly 8 years and now is the babysitter for the child. My mom is 86 and is taking care of a 4 1/2 yr old rambunkcious child. My daughter is a terrible mother, very strict and shows very little affection towards her daughter. I always loved on my daughter, she was the apple of my eye, but I had rules, and one day in October of 2004 she decided she was going to live her life, but it was going to be at my mom’s. My mom has shown favortism all of her life. She will do abundant things for a few of her children and grandchildren, and nothing for the others. I was never one of the favorites, my daughter was. I still suffer from depression, and sometimes want to take my life, but I am now gradually getting better. God has worked miracles in my life, and he saved me from taking my own. I don’t know what he has in store, or how he plans on turning this into good, but I know I just have to wait on Him and have faith that he will heal me. I pray he will heal my daughter’s heart as well as she has become so hardened toward me. Losing her was like a death, and I ended up in the psychiatric hospital. But I’m still here, and encourage anyone who wants to take their life to wait an hour, then wait another hour, then wait a day, then wait a week, and wait a month, and to read the Bible and tithe. God is faithful. You may not get what you want, but you will give what God wants you to HAVE. Peace be with you all. Debbie

    • Michael

      Keep hanging in there Debbie.

      We will be praying for you.

      Michael

  • Alyce

    Does not mean much or help your faith when crack whores and teen’s can have children, walk in that hell of jealousy and being dead with a pulse….. Same thing

  • hada

    My father in law just comtted suicide, he was sick trouble breathing diabetes so bad he was about to lose he legs. I wish I could have done more there were signs I just didn’t think it was this bad, he was 82 I hope and pray he is with the lord and not in pain anymore. I will always remember the good times and will do everything in my power to help his wife in this decult time as well of my lovely wife and the rest of his family. Sadly missed but never forgotten.

  • Swifty

    I know first hand the hearts that are shattered by suicide. I also know you can feel your utmost worst ever, and two years from now, be much better and happier. Things change! Lean on God! He is there for you! Suicide death ,means you never get another chance at a better day. And they will get better, I promise you, with God by your side, they will. Love and peace to you all.